Teach me, Guide Me, Lead Me.

I was about to shut down the comp and remove my nail polish,

but after reading Sarah’s QT on Faith PLUS 1 wall,

i just had this urge to like write about this,

and hence the title.

Somehow God’s Grace is there. Its just there, waiting for you to take it.

BUT many times, we tend to take it  for granted.

we take a look at those negative things, and forget about the things that God has pull us through all the things you’ve never thought you could do.

and of cos, thats what they call Scaffolding.

God scaffolds us through His grace and mercy.

So many many things.

Like my O levels, thats one example.

If it wasn’t for His Grace, i wouldn’t be in ECH.

If it wasn’t for His Grace, i wouldn’t have taken Media Studies (even though i failed it in the end)

If it wasn’t for Him, i prob would be dead by now.

If it wasn’t for Him, My Mother would be dead.

If it wasn’t for Him, my family would be broken. and there will be this great scar in my life.

And if it wasn’t for Him, i’ll prob not be in this guitar workshop.

I am afraid, i am freaking out for tmr,

But i know and i pray that God will pull me through.

For when God has put you to it, no reason why He won’t pull you through it, you see.

For God is such a Gracious God. And His Grace is always more than Enough.

It reminds me of the many church camp encounters i have.

Its amazing beyond words. really.

He’s… indescriable.

In His Arms.

He’s so so so amazing :)

Anyway, wanted to say something that i was so affirmed by, even though it was so unexpected. While Me and Noel were coming down from level 3, there was this parent of this kid we are taking this year, and he was like ” You know, we really appreciate you all. Thank you”. We both were like “You’re welcome”, but in my heart i was so affirmed at the end of the day. Its because we only took/seen the new class for like… 2-3 weeks? And when parents say these kind of things, i can only say that its the previous Teachers who have taken them well,and also God. :)

Was so so so amazed, coming to thing about it.

I meant today was screwed, really screw. you can ask anyone who was around me today. like simin they all. the counsellors kinda saw, i didn’t make it that obvious to my zone people. My today was just so screwed. i don’t even know why from the start i felt that screwed.

or maybe i know, i just refuse to say. so screwed that until now i can’t settle myself to study.

yeah.and when i saw him,  my mood became even worst. i kept avoiding him and stuff.

i wish i didn’t. i really wish i didn’t.

i wish i could just turn back time, but i know nothing can be done except going forward and giving him up 100%.

for not its 89%. but its slowly progressing.

anddddddddd. its just seem so… arghhh.

but nonetheless. though the day was screwed up, and all, like the kids were not listening,

DARE TO TALK BACK AT ME SOMEMORE.

i don’t mean cannot talk back, but testing my patience sia.

HAHAHAH. yeah.

so being an extraordinary year, definitely has its ups and downs,

disappointments and fears, as well as achievements and happiness.

but for now.

i can’t smile. i can’t find my smile. i think i lost it.